Explorace

Assalamualaikum.

Hello dumb blog, readers and stalkers. It has been long time since my last update. Sorry for not updating the blog cuz currently, I am busy doing my project, assignments, revision for tests and worrying bout the finals I'll be having in next month. Plus, I don't have anything to be shared here. Tho I didn't update the blog for some time, the stats still showing numbers of visitors coming to this blog. 2 hours ago: A visitor from Kuala Lumpur, 3 hours ago: A visitor from Melaka, 4 hours ago: A visitor from Egypt, and so on. I can relate that, y'guys are actually craving to read my post =P And yeah, be thankful to me now cuz at last I've something for you to read, weeee :D 

Well, firstly, I'd like to write/give my opinion why I'm writing this blog in English. I know, I've a lot of grammatical mistakes here, but I still write the post in English. Sorry for the annoying-ness I'm giving you, huhu. Why I write in English: #1 To sharpen my English skills, that's for sure. #2 To avoid be influenced like in other's blog who write like this in Bahasa: Harituww akuww pegi makan dekat kedai Mamak... Adeww mamat ni kentut sebelah aku.... Hahahahahahahahaha.... Lepas tu mamat tu pandang-pandang aku sambil korek hidung..... Hahahahahahahahahaha...... Kawan-kawan aku semua gelak hahahahahahahaha...... See? Do you really need to write the hahahahaha after one sentence and another? Tak kelakar pun. It's annoying y'know, to read the very long hahahahahahahaha -.- And and and, the rempit-style writing! Errhhh, you really don't know how to spell the words correctly? I think this is more annoying than reading a sentence with wrong vocab/grammar. #3 To avoid writing a long essay. My first language is Bahasa and I'm a person who likes to talk and I'm actually a person who don't stop talking. If I'm writing this blog in Bahasa, I bet it'll take you forever to finish reading it. For example, if I'm writing in Bahasa: Malam ini terasa sunyi sekali. Aku terjaga di tengah-tengah malam, sehinggakan tiada seorang pun yang berkeliaran di luar bilikku. Sejuknya udara di waktu malam begini. Terasa begitu nyaman dan aman sekali Aku sukakan keamanan begini. Tanpa ada satu suara pun yang mengangguku, oh best nyer kurniaan yang Allah berikan ini. Example if I'm writing in English: Tonight feels so lovely. I'm awake in the middle of the night. I like this feeling. That's why I prefer to write in English. Cuz I can save time and words without writing any further explanation 'bout something. And, what is Bahasa if I'm mixing the words? Like, "oh best nyer" sentence. #4 That's all, thank you. 

Okay, now lets proceed to my main point of updating blog. I'd like to update about yesterday's explorace I participated. The race is under the Unit Bahasa Antarabangsa, and there were about six/seven languages department taking part in it. I don't actually put any hopes to win the race, cuz there were a lot of students taking part in it. If one language department has around 40+ students taking part, use your mathematics skill to count how many students were there at the stadium. Of course they divided the prizes according to the language, but still, I don't really hope to win. And sadly, we didn't win the explorace, tho :( 

The reason why we didn't win the race is because of the last checkpoint we've been looking for. The clue says, "food court", but it was actually a place where it has nothing to do with the word food court! It was in G3, at the back of the building. But because of the clue says "food court", we went to the canteen in G3 but nothing was in there. So we ran to TDI's cafe, and still, the result was the same. So, we made our moves to the library's cafe, and also, nothing. Next, we went to TSN's cafe, the result was still the same. We got tired and fed up to find the place, and at last we called the facilitators in charge, and asked him where in the world is the last checkpoint. He said it was in G3 and after a few arguments with him, saying mana ade dekat G3! Kitorang dah pergi dah tadi, at last we made our move back to G3, and suddenly I remembered there was a pit stop at the back of the building. Bingo! We lastly managed to get to the checkpoint. At the time we arrived there, the AJK in charge already set out the chairs and tables. We were the last group to arrive. They even laughed at us, and said "Haa sini meh sini. Takpe, takpe." Everybody else already finished the race 1 hour earlier, but we just arrived at the pit stop, boooo -.- This is how far we actually ran/walked: 

The path is actually not as zig zag as this. I just wanna show you how far we actually walked. 

Scale: 1mm:500m :p

And after laughing at our silly mistakes at the last checkpoint, we walked to the stadium and we could see many of the participants had already arrived. We separated into 3 groups so that it won't be so obvious that we were the last team to arrive, haha -.- When we handled in the tasks, the AJK in charge also laughed at us for being the very last team, after 1++ hours everybody has finished the explorace.  

But after all, I'm actually proud of how I can still run/walk long distance after it has been 7++ months I've been accumulating fats in my body, :D I must say that, not only the race we 'explored' race, but also the whole campus! All this while I don't even know the existence of my U's kindergarten. But after our 'own' explorace, I now know 'bout it -.- 

Before the explorace started

My team members.

I think that's all from today. Assalamualaikum :) 

With love,

Nina

Tanjung Piai

Assalamualaikum.

A trip to Tanjung Piai, where it is located at the most southern east coast of Asia. Its natural wonders have been gazetted into a National Park.


Tanjung Piai is named after pokok piai (a species of pokok paku pakis), where there are many of that kind found here, many years back then. We can see different habitats here, and there are some of them are about to extinct, such as Burung Botak. In Sept-April, we can also see migrating birds from Russia (and etc, sorry I can't remember) And, there are many rubbish found around the park, as they're brought from the sea (the Malacca Strait).What else to write? Emmmm, I've no idea, cuz I woke up at 5 this morning, and I need to get some rest.


So, I'll let the pictures do the talking, enjoy!

This is not Tanjung Piai, this is at Pontian.

Prof is giving a brief

Akhi, the International Student

I better get going to bed now, cuz everybody else in the room already zzz zzz T__T Good noight! 

p/s: Should I change the blog url? Cz I can sensed that, someone is keeping his eyes on this blog. Should I or shouldn't I? =/

With Love,

Nina

Replay

Summer after high school when we first met

We make out in you mustang to radio head 

And on my 18th birthday we bought matching tattoos

Used to steal your parent's liquor, and climb to the roof

Talked about our future, like we had a clue

Never planned that one day I'd be losing you

In another life

I would be your girl 

We keep all our promises be us against the world

In another life

I would make you stay 

So I don't have to say you were the one that got away

The one that got away

Fate & Destiny

Assalamualaikum.

Life has taught her so many things that no one could show her, no books could teach her. She's been living in this earth for 19 years, but the only year she had her true learning and meaning of life, is when she has turned herself to 19 this year. She's a girl who don't stay still to her stand, who has the lowest self esteem, who believes life is never on her side, who betrays her friend for someone she loves, who has nothing in life that she could be proud of, who tries so hard, but don't succeed, and believes her golden years are disappearing from time to time.

She used to be the happiest girl in this world, stayed with her girls everywhere for 24/7, never believed in boys and love, never had a special boy, and put her studies matter top in her priority. No, she don't say that she don't put her studies matter top in her priority anymore, she still put it there. Tho she never had any special boys in her life, she still had her best-est times in her life with ze girls she loved.

As times passed, she learnt the true meaning of life. She knows that no one can stand by her side forever, everybody she knows will leave her one by one. She also learnt that no body can stay to their promises. At least, one promise will be broken. To her, life is not that easy. If life is as easy as ABC, no one in this world will ever get hurt, everyone would be so happy with their lives.

Despite of having all those feelings and believings, she still has very strong faith in Allah. She knows that Allah has set the best-est things for her and never failed in His planning. She knows it, she knows. But somehow, she's just failed. She fall, she cries, she blames her life, she realizes, she prays, and she gets up from her falling, alone.

This is a story of her. If we find ourselves hard, there are more people who have their hard lives too. So, we should be grateful of what we're having now. But, her story might not be as hard as other people who suffer to live. This is just apart of her life that I wanted to share.

Although she was so happy with her girls, she got so much more happy when she declared herself as someone's. She never thought that she would be in love with him, and never crossed her mind to have her first love when she knows nothing 'bout love and boys. She just followed the flow, and however managed to have her beautiful days and nights with the boy. They studied together, gave inspiration to each other, texted/called 24/7, shared their happiness and problems, never missed to say "I love you" to each other everyday, and they did so much more things like what other couples used to do. She swear to God that she never had her beautiful life like she had when she was with him, as that was her first love. Mark that, her first love.

Like others relationship, they also had some problems. However, they managed to get thru them and lived their lives back to normal. But as time goes by, they started to feel that they no longer have the chemistry to stay together. But however, they still waited for each other to go online, chatted as usual, asked whether she/he okay or not, and their lives go on as usual. But one thing the girl realized was that, they no longer say the magic words. No more "I love you" (or atleast I miss you) whenever they ended their chat. To be true, the girl is actually waited for the boy to say it, but she didn't receive it, even after they have ended their relationship. If the boy says she still love her, the girl would definitely reply the same thing to him.

Whenever they're having their bad times, the girl always calmed herself and said that, "If we can managed having three years together, in bad or in good, in sick or in health, why can't we stay for many years ahead together?", that's what she's been asking to herself.

Thing is, they tried, but they failed. That's all. The girl knows that their love is never can be compared to other's love story which is much more complicated and sad, but the girl feel so down to have her love to end up, when she finally gave all her heart to the boy.

Guys, isn't it sad? =/ Okay, that's all about the girl. To the girl who has their broken heart, please be strong and look at the bright side of it. May you have a good life. Aaamiinnnn.

p/s: The girl in the story I wrote about isn't me. I'm still with Adli okay. I love you Adli. Thanks for being there for me, even tho we are very far apart. Hugs and kisses :*

With Love, 

Nina

Times

Assalamualaikum.

So here in Twitter, they got this #ToBeHonest trend: 

And I tweeted this:

I'm not saying that I'm not happy with the life I'm having now, no, not. I am perfectly happy in this relationship status with him, but I just missed how I felt in 4-6 years back then. I used to be in group when I was in secondary school, and the group is known as 'group anti lelaki'. The title wasn't being created by us, but we were being labelled as it, huhu. If it's only the title we were being labelled and we didn't really show it, then it's okay, but the time we knew 'bout it, we kinda act it and show it even often. Haha, old times with that kind of minded =P

As a group of not really into boys and couple, none of us at that time were in a relationship status. What we did in school was just mind our own business, laugh as loud as we can and lived lives to the fullest. Tho we were being hated by our attitude, but we were all happy with ourselves. I remember, many bad things had happened to us along those years. There was time, when Syaz was almost being spitted by a boy. She was standing only 0.000001 mm closed to the boy's spitting spot! He knew Syaz was standing there, but he purposely did it. Life old days, -.- I also remember, time when Dery was walking to the class, then this boy from upstairs, purposely threw an ice towards her, thus hit her private area. Nice aim, huh? -.- And there was also time, when Kakty lost her diary and somehow we knew that the diary was taken by a boy, named Ashraf Sinclair (not a real name, for sure). We settled the matter inside our class. The climax was when we stepped out of the class, the whole batch of boys stood a crowd near the stairs, waited for things to settle, and we ain't had no choice, but to pass thru them. And at the time we were passing thru them, they made this kind of noise 'Ewwhhh pewwmmpuan ni akuww cepuwwkk kaangggg', and some threw a disgust look to us. See, how strong the bonds they had? To be honest, I was a bit scared, but I acted like I'm not. Haha, am cool, no? =P

As time passed, we were no longer feel fear towards the boys. We stand as a strong group of girl, and were brave enough to go against 'em. There was this time when we had a mouth fight with 'em. It was when we were in Form 3. We lost a photo of us, and somehow we found out that the photo was being taken by this boy, named Farid Kamil (not a real name). At first the conversation went smooth, but when the story got complicated, we got irritated and now, the war began, haha. There was also this time, when we were brave enough to fight back when they shouted and insulted us of being too noisy. 

These are exactly how I lived when I was single. I didn't have any special boy friends, I seldom talked with boys, I had bad relationship with 'em, and I didn't know how to mix with 'em. All I know was busy having sisters' bond with my girls and I'm totally happy with them. I just missed the old times I had with my friends and the feeling I got when I was single. See, Kakty also missed it =O

Somehow it's true =/ 

Adli, if you read this, please don't get offended. I'm just kind of missing it, not regretting it. I love yo-yo-yo-youuuuu! ♥ ♥ ♥

With love, 

Nina

My Wishes

Assalamualaikum.

Friday is 11.11.11, and I usually don't believe in making wishes. However, tomorrow's date only happens once every one hundred years, so I wouldn't want it to be wasted. That day I'm going to be with someone who came into my life as a friend and now my very special man. I'm going to wait for him and laugh at our silly jokes together. I'm going to have the feelings I have when we are both happy with each other. I'm going to have a long talk with him and share with him whatever things I have. I'm going to tease him like I used to do when he's here with me, in Malaysia. And lastly, I'm going to convince him that this relationship is worth it. I pray that everything will be back to normal, please =(

He, who is there for me when I was at my worst, and who always knew how to make me smile, and never failed doing it. I've never been luckier than I am now, and it's all thanks to him. 

I hope my wishes wouldn't just remain wishes. Like I said, I don't really believe in making wishes cuz wishes require a lot of luck and unfortunately, I seldom have that. I know, my life is so sad =( 

With Love, 

Nina

Special Love

Assalamualaikum.

The only stranger I love in my life is my maid(s). I've been living with maid(s) since I was in year three, up until today. I call them a stranger cuz #1 I know nothing 'bout their backgrounds on the first day they stepped into my house, #2 I can only know their true colors after few months/years working, #3 They're not my flesh blood. Logically, we don't call our new friend as a stranger, we don't call a friend to our friend a stranger, we don't call a driver bus we meet on road as stranger, we don't call makcik-tepi-jalan-jual-sayur we meet by accident as stranger too, no?

Maid(s). The only strangers I love. People who are living with maids have extra people they'd love in life. Other people don't experience this. In fact, they don't have any strangers they'd love in life, don't they?

Living with maids and do things together with 'em is f-f-funn. We can do the house chores together, I can ask 'em to help me when I'm in trouble, ask 'em to play with my hair, ask 'em what they think of my outfits, share with 'em things I have in mind, and and and, get scolded with Umi when something we did weren't right haha -.-

I still remember, when I cried non-stop during my last day of seeing Kak Tira. It was when the whole family sent me off to Puncak Alam. I was sitting beside her at the back seat. Several kilometers reaching Puncak Alam, tears started to come streaming down my face which I cannot help to stop them. I broke the silence in the car with my sedut-hingus-sound cuz hey, I cried badly kott, tipu lar kalau takde hingus keluar sekali -.-
I cried not only to Kak Tira, but to others too. 

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November 6, 2011.
It would be a date which I never forget. We cannot tolerate any more on you, Kak Liya. She's already back to Indonesia for good and we hope that she'd realize of what she had done. After all the mistakes you had done, the whole family have forgiven you. May Allah forgive you and bless you always. We ain't got no choice but to send you back. If it's hard for you, it's hard for us too. We love you, and we hope to hear good news from you. Please be okay and look at the bright side. Allah is not cruel. He don't put us in pain if it's beyond our strength.

This is for Kak Su, Kak Mar, Kak W (I can't remember her name), Kak Ina, Kak Yuni, Kak Tira and Kak Liya.
You come here as strangers, but go back a sister of mine.

Thanks for all the kindness you've given us. Oh Allah, please bless them, give your forgiveness to them, ease their lives and give good health to them. Aamiinn.

With love, 

Nina 

Life

I tried, but I don't succeed. 

I studied, but I don't get good marks.

I planned, but it don't turn out to be the same as what I hoped it would.

I hoped too much, and I disappoint at the end. 

I gave promises, but I break them.

And I gave so many trouble to people around me. 

Can't my life get any worse?  

Ya Allah, may you always ease my way and give guidance to me. I'm sorry Umi =(  

Future Planning

Assalamualaikum. 

I've been in Uni for nearly two months and I can see many changes in myself. I mean it's not the bad ones, but it's a good change that makes me feel wow! *clap clap*

Well, I'm not a student who's being sponsored by any scholarships or foundations. And I didn't apply for PTPTN. Wait, I applied, and I got it, but the forms are not being sent yet, and I think I'll cancel it cuz Imma waiting for YBR huhu. Plus, PTPTN imposes high interest which will take me forever to pay them back! Therefore, I've to struggle hard to use money wisely. No more shopping, no more buying clothes/bags/accesories thru online. Save, nina save.

So instead of cutting the shopping budget that makes me feel so much stress about it, I'm planning on saving a quarter of money I get from Abi for many good reasons. Plus, i'll get many benefits from it in the long run.

#1 Save, so that I can go to Egypt and attend Adli's convocation day. *rising eyebrows* 

#2 Save, and put the money aside with my daily-used-money. This is for back up to be used after Degree. I'll try not to use it unless if I'm desperate, huhu.  

#3 Save, and start planning the budget for wedding day, woohoo.
Everybody wants to get married, and wants it to be something memorable. Memorable to me is a simple one, but it's unique, style, nice, and the guests can remember. Even a small wedding has already taken RM10k+, what if a wedding to have these four criteria, aite? =/ So, start planning it from now Nina, if you want to make it come true. This is not a plan of menggatal-nak-kahwin-awal, but it's a long run planning. We should start saving our wedding budget from now, so that we can cut on making private loan with the banks in the future. *Ehem ehem, macam mak-mak* 

To study in Batu Pahat is a God's blessing to me. No Forever 21, Cotton On, Padini Store,  where I can shop like there's no other day fiiiuuhh. Imagine what if I were to study in KL that has these stores? In your dream lah, if you wanna save -.- Okay, that's all about my plans on saving money and the purpose of saving it. The main purpose is just to attend Adli's convocation day, hiewhiewhiew ♥ As conclusion, the purpose is decreasing as it goes down =P 

Till here, with love, 

Nina 

Deepavali's Story

Assalamualaikum.

Hello dumb blog and readers! Namaste, mera nam hey Nina. Varuga varuga. (Deepavali's celebration mode -.-) A day without school is a God's bless day, I tell you. Mark that, a God's bless day. It's a full blessed day, y'know, since I don't have to wake up so early to get to the class, I need no having a long stand in front of my locker to pick the clothes I can match with, and and and, I don't have to think twice either to wash a-full-pail-laundry or not before shower (this is the hardest part in every good morning I have). So then, where's the good in the good morning? Huhu.

I was awakened from a message notification, at 0856. A message from Adli, saying that he misses me a lot teehihihihi. After reading his message, I pulled up the blanket to the chest level, and started to go back to my dreamland. 0856, still early. Then came my bestie in UTHM into my room, asking me to accompany her to the Terminal. And I said yes to her request. As today is a holiday, I planned to do revision or finish the final touch assignment. And because of her request, I need to cancel my plan and I thought today would be a day with nothing less but a waste-of-time day. But instead of having a-waste-of-time-day, I learnt much more things that books can never teach me. Thanks Tiara (:

On our way to the terminal, the bus got so packed by immigrants from Bangladesh. Now that the bus is packed, I can't breathe anymore fresh air except their's. You know what their's here refers to, right? As I am feeling annoyed by the smell, I got so much more annoyed with this so called loser Bangla guy. He was trying to act cute in front of me, as he kept hugging over his friend's body and putting his head down to his friend's shoulder. He acted like as if he's a very loving person, and as I looked at his stupid act, I caught him for several times looking at me, it's like an if-I'm-looking-at-him-or-not look. Duhh, clearly shown that he was testing his market in front of me -.- Y'know, the situation you get when someone annoys you so much, but you just can't help letting your eyes from their annoying-ness! I faced this situation earlier and and I AM very that kind of a person, I tell you. The more I get annoyed by something, the more I like to stare at him's/her's. Yea, I know I'm such a loser -.- #1 Lesson I learnt: To take my eyes off to whatever shit that happens.

I wished the guy in the bus was this guy in the picture. Eh, cannot. The guy in the pic never annoy me. Hihi. 

After buying the ticket, we took a bus to Carrefour. As we were on the bus, there was this little boy together with his granny. He didn't stay still and gave a lot of trouble to his granny. The granny was sitting next to the bus alarm, and he can't help on pressing it. He laughed every time he pressed it. And at every time he pressed the button, the granny will slap his hand. There was one time when he wanted to press the alarm, the granny unintentionally (I guess) punched the boy's thigh, and he cried loudly in pain. Pity on him right? He got scolded just because of an alarm. Huhu. #2 Lesson I learnt: Be patient when handling with the small kids as they're just a kid. They just wanna have fun of something. Act nicely, they'll be nice to you too.

We reached Carrefour after 30 minutes. We hunted for food as soon as we reached there and we had KFC for lunch. The food was okay, but the environment around it wasn't. Flies were flying around my table, the staff kept opened-closed the trash can, and she even brought the sweep and threw the rubbish when I was eating. I can relate that the restaurant and the staffs are not hygiene and hygienic person. #3 Lesson I learnt: Never go to KFC Carrefour anymore.

After two hours of window shopping, we headed to the bus stop to wait for the bus. I was sitting next to a two-kids-mommy. She's a nice person. And as the bus moved, an Indian mommy with her two kids entered the bus. It was raining heavily outside. The baby she hold got wet because of the rain. Mark that, the baby. Ayoo minachi, pity on your baby lar. He's just a baby kott. I just can't imagine myself if I am holding a baby of mine and he/she gets wet from the rain. And I definitely won't let my baby to get even a drop of rain! Pitied those who are unfortunate cuz they need to go somewhere by bus, especially when in rain. I'm grateful that I'm being born in a family which provide good shelter and everything else for me. Thank you Allah. Alhamdulillah. #4 Lesson I learnt: I want to study hard and work hard to earn amount of money, so that my kids will be totally comfortable and have a good perfect life.

Work hard till I can have this house and car (: 

Moral of the story: Life is full of people with different attitude and way of life. Sometimes we need to put ourselves in their condition, so that we would be grateful and learn the true meaning of life. Be grateful of what you achieved now and work hard for it. Thank you Allah for everything you've given to me. Guide me all the way, so that I won't go over the boundary. Amin.

With love, 

Nina

Harsh.

Assalamualaikum.

Life treats me harshly these days. I got so many things running in mind, and they are about the choices I need to choose in my life, eg. #1 To study or to be in standby mode just in case if he goes online. And I chose to go online so that I can keep in touch with him. But it turned out to be the opposite of what I thought it was. Sigh. #2 To hardly choose not to play softball. Well, I'm a University student now, and I should actively involve in Koku so that it would ease me to find a job in the future. There was a softball selection recently to represent the U in MASUM. I missed the chance I had without giving it a try. Double sigh. #3 To keep those feelings I have in mind alone, or to find someone whom I can trust to lend me their ears. This is the hardest part after all. Triple sigh.

Is it me the only one who feels this way? Hey you, are you doing good if you're in the same shoes? And if you're not, why is it me the only one who feels this way? How can you not feel the same thing like I have now? Sigh. Is it me the only one to be blamed or is it me the only one who should carry all the burdens and to put as much efforts as I can so that we can still keep what we have now? Can you be with me and set things right together? Can you or can you not? I'm just sick of all these things and the decisions I have to make. I'm just sick. But after all the sickness I feel, I just can't let you out of my mind or to not to think about you, not even a second. How's that? Should I ignore you and pretend that I'm okay or should I just say it to you so that you can know the very true feelings I have now? Long sigh.

Oh Allah, please lend me some strength to handle this and please be with me all the time. Even if he's not with me, I know you'd never leave Your Servant alone. I believe if you bring me to this, you will show me the way. Please show me. Amin. Till here.

With love, 

Nina  

The New Me.

Assalamualaikum.

Hye, this is my very first post in this blog. Actually I used to have one before, but I deleted it because of some relevant reasons which I need to take in consider. #1 I felt inconvenient with my followers/readers. I know it was my fault to let the link appeared publicly till they can know the existence of the blog or become my followers. Because of the inconvenient I felt, I need to think twice before I can publish a post up. #2 Some of the posts are not supposed to be written out in the first place by me, and be read by other people whom don't have any connections to do with me. In other words, they should be kept for personal view only, or for people whom I trusted or the loved ones a.k.a Adli. #3 My new friends were one of my follower. This is quite similar to the first reason above, but I deliberately choose to separate them. #4 The previous blog contained too many euw-gelifying-posts. Mark the word too many. I think I need to erase them all, but when I give a second thought about it, I found out that I'll be having no more posts in my blog! And so, instead of deleting the euw-gelifying-posts, I deleted the whole blog. Haha -.- 

My official blog: neena-a.blogspot.com

The a with the dash symbolizes Adli. I want my things/stuffs to have his name too ehem ehem. I shall be active to blogging, or else there's nothing to be remembered. Till here.

With love, 

Nina